Tankeinnlegg - på engelsk!

"Somewhere in the distance there's a place for me to go
I don't want you to hate me, but I think you need to know
You're weighing on my shoulders, and I'm sick of feelin' down
So I guess it's time for me to say goodbye..."

[Dette er slutten på en sangtekst. Og ja, det er av Simple Plan! Det var rart å høre dette første gangen (eller kanskje første gang jeg oppdaget hva han virkelig sang...). Det passer nemlig helt inn i noe jeg gikk gjennom i år! Simple Plan har faktisk mange sanger jeg kjenner meg igjen i, eller som godt kunne passet inn i livet mitt noen ganger. Kanskje det er derfor jeg liker dem så godt?]

So, that was what I thought. Making it real to "say goodbye" was much harder. I didn't know why it was so hard, but it sure was. It took some weeks, even months to realize that it was for the best... Actually, now is the time where I've realized that. This thing "started" in March, I think, and has kept holding on until now. Well... It hasn't been that hard 'all the time' (its "strength" has varied a lot from unbelievable hard to handle, to where I barely thought about it), but it has always come back on me, and I don't even know for sure if it's over now...

At the worst times, I was really afraid that it would never stop. This thoughts and feelings were haunting me - day and night. Especially during the day. At school, on the bus, at home, on the footballtrainings... It drove me crazy! I guess my mood wasn't on top that time and I'm sorry for that. I can't say anything else but that it was some hard times for me to deal with.

I don't know if you understood any of this. And it wasn't really on purpose, either... I just started to write, and then.. This was the result. Oh, and don't ask, I'm struggling to find the answers myself...

Dette innlegget ble mye på engelsk, gitt... Tror ikke jeg har skrevet et engelsk innlegg før, men når jeg skriver om tanker og sånn, blir jeg ofte automatisk satt over på engelsk... Ikke alltid, men ofte.

Jeg får legge meg.
God natt! Sleep tight, don't let the bugs bite ;D

- Linnie